As a highly sensitive soul starting my Earthly-journey was sometimes a challenge for me. I felt the roughness and insensitivity in the behavior of people towards one another and other living beings. Early on I had been shown through dreams the intrinsic value and intelligence of animals. Also there was a knowing in me that we are more than our body and that our physical aspects are just the densest layer of our expression. As there were not many others around me sharing seemingly this awareness, I felt quiet lonely at times and with a resistance to fully incarnate into my body.
In my teenage-years, I started to embrace more the human experience; I loved sports, dancing and traveling, and connecting with my friends. I was going through my ups and downs; ups whenever I managed to play the human life fully without questioning too much, and downs whenever I stopped for a moment and sensed the emptiness of existence, without the true connection to myself or the magic of life around me.
My love for animals and fascination for nature had brought me onto a career path in biology and ecology, that on a practical level however didn't fulfil me. In my perception we were solely busy trying to fit nature into our concepts and not understanding the true intelligence of nature and its intrinsic value.
In my early 30s, life started to send me reminders of who I am and gave me glimpses of how it feels to be fully connected to myself and everything around me. I started initiating a switch in my 'career' path that step for step feels more truly aligned with who I am. I started understanding that in order to heal our relationship with Gaia and all her beings, we have to firstly start healing ourselves and to consciously connect with our soul to feel home and whole again. I switched from a scientifically oriented point of view - to a more holistic life perception.
When in my early 40's, life (and I guess myself from a higher perspective) decided, I was ready for the ultimate challenge of letting go of my work, relationship and home, I took a big step into the unknown, moving to a new country by myself to live a life in simplicity, closer to nature and more in line with what is important to me. Letting go of the three main pillars that our current society connects the false sense of security to, was bringing me through a journey of feeling extremely free and joyful in moments that I was centered within my heart, and in other moments I could feel that the ground was taken underneath my feet and anxiety and (self-)doubt was part of my experience. Deep within me however, there was never a doubt that the path I was starting to walk, was in line with my heart.
Now being in my fourth year abroad, I am truly grateful for my path. It brought me such a diverse experience of this human life, with all the challenges and beauty, which now also helps me to deeply understand the challenges that people may go through on their path. I now call it growing pain, as I experienced it, when my legs started growing as a child, and ultimately it makes us the magical beings that we are; from a caterpillar in a cocoon to a butterfly.
Guided by my heart, spirit and the mirrors of the people crossing my path, life starts to flow more easily as I am losing the resistance and stepping into trust.
I call it the hearts journey home, as the ultimate guidance I receive, is through connecting to my heart and intuition.
WITH LOVE, JUDITH
